Lost

I seem to have lost something.

Its strange, i’ve looked everywhere.

It hasn’t slipped down the side of the desk,

It isn’t in the car,

I can’t find it in by bag

and I haven’t left it anywhere.

—-

I suppose that is the way mental stability works.

Once you’ve lost it,

It really doesn’t seem to want to be found.

—-

But perhaps I will check the fridge,

just to be sure.

Lost part II’:~

Whilst walking I realised that some things which

are lost, can’t be found in only

one place.

—-

I have started finding it, but in

bits. I found the first bit in some

Aretha Franklin lyrics sent via text.

Some was in Whitstable on the

beach, and a little bit was in a cup of

tea in a spongebob mug.

—-

I found some of it whilst breaking

down outside Canterbury West.

Some of it I found as my hand was

held tightly in an ambulance.

—-

But I found most of it I found in a hug in

36a North Lane. I couldn’t have found it

in a normal hug. Only in one there.

In fact, I seem to find a bit in every

hug there.

—-

I suppose that tells me where to keep looking.

I will put a note in the fridge, so

that I find it faster next time. 

Lost part II

Whilst walking I realised that some things which are lost,

can’t be found in only

one place.

I have started finding it, but in

bits. I found the first bit in some

Aretha Franklin lyrics sent

via text.

Some was in Whitstable on the

beach, and a little bit was in a cup of

tea in a spongebob mug.

I found some of it whilst breaking

down outside Canterbury West.

Some of it I found as my hand was

held tightly in an ambulance.

But I found most of it I found in a hug in

36a North Lane. I couldn’t have found it

in a normal hug. Only in one there.

In fact, I seem to find a bit in every

hug there.

I suppose that tells me where to

keep looking.

ethielswords:

You deny it
Ignore it.
You refuse to see the crack
on your favourite tea cup
but deep inside you’re bleeding
knowing that there’s no mending
that can be done
and buying a new cup
won’t stop you from crying

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Lost

I seem to have lost something.

Its strange, i’ve looked everywhere.

It hasn’t slipped down the side of the desk,

It isn’t in the car,

I can’t find it in by bag

and I haven’t left it anywhere.

—-

I suppose that is the way mental stability works.

Once you’ve lost it, 

It really doesn’t seem to want to be found.

—-

But perhaps I will check the fridge,

just to be sure.

Reduced to nothing?

I am a strong person.

My bones are not brittle,

My muscles are not weak, 

My hands can hold your’s 

and my arms can hug you.

-

Yet I am the weakest person I know.

My lungs don’t always let me breathe,

My head doesn’t let me see,

My limbs can’t always hold me

and my eyes can’t hold tears in.

-

I am courageous. 

I can hold you when you cry, 

I can tell you it will be alright and ensure it, 

I can perform through fear

And love despite social hatred.

-

Yet I am the most scared.

I fear waking up with each morning,

I fear what falling asleep might bring,

I fear losing you,

and most I fear losing myself.

-

I am loving.

I would walk the earth for you,

I would give my time for you,

I would sacrifice my enjoyment for you

and move mountains to see you smile.

-

Yet I have no love for myself. 

I don’t see me the way you apparently do,

I don’t want to put you through this,

I don’t want you to have such a hopeless friend

and I don’t want to live like this anymore.

-

How can one person be so many things.

-

If a strong person is weak, 

If a courageous person is scared,

If a loving person has no love,

Then…are they nothing?